stay at home black mom with no friends

I’ve been a stay at home mom for like two years now. I’m finally getting use to it. At the beginning when we moved here. My love told me to be a stay at home mom so i can go to school and get a degree. I’ve been to 3 different colleges and they one did not fit me or i could not find any one to watch my kids especially my oldest that has autism. So i have given in and completely stayed home. Im signing up for school (on-line) getting my BA in communication.

Also as a stay at home black mom….i have no friends….like none. I have my best friend but she live in another state and she is a working single mom of 2 boys. everybody i know works. As a black woman in this time of day, It is insane to be a stay at home mom and not be making any money and let your spouse or love make the money and take care of home. I wish i had more friends around to be more supportive. I have family that think i live far. they always asking me when am i coming to see them. no1 comes out to see me. When i do get to my hometown all i hear is that i live around where there is boats and clubs for people who has money. I’m not the only black person around this area. it is just rare. I’m trying to find moms around here that are like me and stay at home.

It just get depressing at times where every1 around you is moving. Sometimes i just want to sit and let the days go by but i have kids and so that’s why i kick it up into gear and get fit. I have to understand that the kids are in good hands because they are with mom and they have lots of fun even though i become poof out. lol

I REALLY DO ENJOY MY JOB AS A STAY AT HOME MOM

Sandra Bland (black lives matter) my opinion

Before you think I’m going to be on BLACK POWER. Just here me out. I had no idea this was going on with this situation. I don’t like watching the news it is very depressing and sad on how the United States is doing things.
This is opinion on this case.

Watching the video, the cop had no right to get in her carry and attempt to pull her out. This cop had no right to put restrain on her like he did. There was absolutely no reason she needed to get out of the car on the behalf of a traffic stop. Now it seems that she had depression and ptsd. Some people feel that this is not valid but hear me out. You get put in a jail by yourself. You don’t know how long your going to be in there. Family trying to get money for you, so you can get out. It is dark, cold and as a person that has never been put in that type of situation. I believe that your mind can do all kinds of things. They have cameras towards her cell showing that no one came in or out and they found her dead. She could of killed herself or she didn’t kill herself. We will never know the true facts only because somebody is trying to cover their own ass. I will express that if that officer would of gave her,her ticket and let her just be mad and told her to have a nice day. She would be alive today.
As a black mother of two children. one boy with autism. My fear an anxiety is over and beyond. I will do everything in my power to let him know he need to obey rules but at the same time. You got to watch yourself. Our color is a target. At the same time. The white people see how we carry on and treat each other so they dog us.  I love white people and I always been a fan of police officers. I was never that kid that ran or just plain out disrespected the police because I’m black. No not at all. I want my kids to be mindful of what’s around them. Hopefully this country can get better by the time kids grow up. All I can do is pray for peace, unity and happiness.